I wrote this last night but silly phone wouldn't upload it.
I am so full of faith and life right now and I feel like I would take any leap for this amazing God! I am beyond grateful....what words can I use to describe this gratitude? I mean my loving God, father, friend, gives me this precious gift of his son dying a tragic, horrid death, rising from the grave so that my debt is paid....so that I can have life eternally, He and only He can make me understand and give purpose to my hurts and allow me to feel the healing in my heart that he has....how to describe my gratitude to this amazing God? Thank you seems like such little words. I thank God, nearly every prayer I start with a sincere "thank u for ECC". Thank you isn't enough!!!! Sharing His love, inviting others to experience His love, His ECC, serving His people...this is my Thank you to God. Sharing his Good News...which should be called Great News...Change your life news! This is the only way I know to do more than say "thank you God". God just amazes me everyday!!!
Tonight, at Worship night, (a Party we get to throw for God), God's love just poured out for me/people so fast, hit me hard! And it's so freakin' amazing to see SO MANY coming forward to announce their decision to follow Christ (through baptism)!!!
It's hits me harder than ever, this is why God made us! To Believe, To announce are faith, move forward with it/with Him, striving for intentional growth...reaching out to everyone, modeling his love to each person we come in contact with, sharing His new Good News!! I am FAR...let me repeat FFFAAARRR from perfect! I get annoyed with people and I take things for granted, I judge (although I work hard to keep my mind neutral), I unfortunately have to catch myself frequently. Thankful God is a forgiving God! But I want to make My God proud. I don't want my hurts wasted, I don't want to waste this precious time on earth with petty BS worries and petty time fillers. I want to SHOUT "I LOVE JESUS and His FATHER!!". I want to LET his love to shine through me, I want to LET him USE me how HE wants to! I want to do this because he first loved me and as a feeble attempt to thank him back!
Tonight was Awesome! My heart was light, Joyous, happy...I shed some tears, tears of utter thrill and disbelief...that our God loves us broken, hopeless, or not. He wants us....it was so absolutely Amazing to see the lives that he has moved in and the decisions to profess their faith! I have felt Satan have a slight hold on me at points .... trying to drag me down and I am quick to see his distractions and quick to say " not today!"
I look forward to God using me! I am surrendered to him! That feels so freakin' amazing!!!!!....!!!!...!!!!!
